Wednesday, August 31, 2011

WELL, Today is my Friday,

So I will be at Dragon*Con in Atlanta on Thursday (it officially begins Friday morning actually) and I’m pretty excited. This year I am gonna really spend some time on the Apocalypse Rising Track because I don’t think there is anything more honest to a make-over than an down and dirty Apocalypse. I have said it before and I’ll say it again, I love a good do-over. The problem with do-overs is that people don’t always reflect on the collapse in a way that shows them their part in the whole mess. Sometimes people start again in the exact same way that caused things to fall apart. Those people are what you call gluttons for punishment. I don’t do Jesus really, I think he is a swell guy and a total bad-ass when it comes to men of conviction and prophets but the whole son of God thing I don’t need for my existence, for those who do, more power to you. What I do is severally explicable (I checked with a grammar nerd and she LOVED that phrasing) first of all I place my faith in myself, my ambition, my willingness to try and fail and then try again (hopefully in a new way) and fail again if need be to get the job done. I also place my faith in the people around me. I am thick enough to believe that people really do want themselves and the people around them to succeed. Example: People want to live in a clean area so they will keep their immediate area clean, their neighbor will see this and think “hey, I want my stuff to be clean too and maybe the elderly woman across the way wants her stuff clean—I’ll see if I can help her a little”. Then boom, clean neighborhood and safer neighborhood because I took a second to say howdy to the lady across the street when I rolled her trash-bins out of the drive after the sanitation truck snagged the contents. That’s it. That’s all. I know, it’s simple but shit, it has always been a better bet for me to look to myself and the people around me for help than waiting for some divine intervention from on high. Again, if that’s your bag, do your thang, I aint mad. I digress… I’ve been thinking of starting a story and I am certain that being with my nerd family will inspire me… “I remember the day I condemned the world and started my very own apocalypse” or something like that…yeah I am ready to GO!!! Don’t panic, I will post here while I am there so you won’t miss anything…whoever happens upon my middle of nowhere blog.
Karma Rocks and so do you and I!

Thursday, August 25, 2011

It's almost that time again kiddos!

Dragon*Con is next week and I am beyond excited! I am going to be all over the place until I leave though because I still have to deal with the fact that we are moving in a month and a half and I should probably start throwing things away. Anyway back to Dragon*Con! where the heck to begin? This year I am going to be there from START to FINISH! I mean I get to Atlanta on thursday afternoon and I leave Tuesday at the end of it all! YES!!! I can't wait! I am like seriously spazzing out! The apocalypse track is where I am headed for some much needed doomsday funfare! (hmmm that looks wrong but it feels right--LOL). Watson isnt going but I suppose I can forgive him...too much work to do which is actually a good thing but he is certainly not excused from the yearly Arizona visit and Grand Canyon Trek (sp). Speaking of which I really have to get into better shape if I wanna hike Bright Angel Trail (yes I know we say that every year but this is the year I crush Ryan on that trail or at the buffet). Well I'm heading over to the Dragon*Con site to see what I can see for next week!

Karma like a ninja (whatevs that might mean)

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

18 Days til DRAGON*CON

and I am ecstatic to say the least! I am so excited that I am constantly checking the website for new information and to reread the old information. Lame right? I know but I can't help it! The apocalypse track looks like it is gonna be fun, fun, fun! The only thing that sucks is  that Watson is not attending with me this year. So its me and the happening Guthries this year. Still cool as all get out though!
I started drawing again over the weekend and I think I have now figured out what made me stop trying in my previous attempts at portrait drawing and that my friends is: EXPECTATIONS! 
My expectations were unrealistic and of course with everything you attempt and fail to set realistic goals for, you likely fail at the attempt. This time I made some very modest expectations (which is hard when you have too grand an idea about your abilities---even in an area you have never before tested yourself) for my drawing goals. I am most interested in portrait drawing so I plan to focus on human subjects for the most part and honestly, despite my issues with proportions, with practice, I certainly be decent at it.
Oh here is something hilarious! I was being a sass-mouth at my Mom's this weekend and immediately the universe served me up a little shut your trap cummupence, I walked into the garage door and banged my forehead but Good! Grrrr! No big cartoonish knot or anything but there was a little bit of swelling that only I could really notice since Mom immediately forced me to ice my face for about an hour the second it happened...Hey Mom, sorry for the sass-mouth! LOL!
Oh, next month I will have been on my job for 2 years and get this...I STILL LOVE IT! I know! Its crazy right?
We move to our new place in October and YES I was hasty about choosing a place because I was worried about not getting some place decent for a decent price. I like the complex but I don't if Watson is crazy about it, but no fear, we're gonna sign a 6 month lease just in case we get there and wanna jump from a window. The upside is that we will be leaving the craptacular complex we live in now and will FINALLY have washer/dryer connections! WOO HOO! No more broken machines. There should be some sort of mild form of punishment we could inflict when the complex fails to keep their property up. You know, something that happens to the worker-bots in the leasing office; like sci-fi in nature that tells everyone who sees them that they work for a company that has crappy laundry facilities. I don't know what that would look like but still...
Anyway, this post wasnt really sci-fi in nature but it was a chance for me to catch up with my week with whatever poor soul still reads it...
Happy Karma folks

Thursday, August 11, 2011

So I love a good dystopia

and most certainly a good apocalypse! You know how I am about a good tear-down and rebuild.  I mean razed to the freaking earth! Love it! I also love when people get their comeuppance, it just feels so good. You know sometimes people mess with you and you turn the other cheek and then BAM the universe bends them over without lube and really rips them apart. Good stuff! Sigh...but I digress. I have been watching a couple's apocalypse and ultimate dystopia and it has been so effing healing.  When I write, I always think of my heroine and her flaws and the times she was hurt and how she will ultimately make herself feel better. That being said I always wonder just how much anger is acceptable on the page. Like, I know you can't go left in real life but on the page I like to really let the monsters out. I'm really just writing this for myself right now because I've been working on my heroine and didnt realize just how much pent up anger I still had over the wrongs I feel have been done to me until my fingers hit the keyboard. Suffice it to say My female lead "Rachel" is a beautiful beast, so don't think you can cross her and just walk away...If you've wronged me, know that I am rejoicing in your comeuppance and am certainly orgasmic over your sickening lot. And on some level, I can honestly say, I REJOICE in your pain. I'm so glad you're miserable and hurting if you made me hurt or made me miserable because DAMN-IT I know I didnt deserve it.
whew...glad I got that out, now I really don't wish bad will on anyone, but if it comes do a double take in the mirror and ask yourself how much of it really belongs to you. You probably owe someone an apology and I hope they accept it and I also hope they spit in your eye...yeah, nasty stuff when you're being honest, right? Hey, blame my heroine, she's the one feeling all the emotions right now!

Tame that Karma folks