Sunday, July 18, 2010

What a difference self Reflection Makes

Well, I haven't been here in a while because frankly, I've become a FaceBook junkie and everyone I wanna talk to is there. It's an instant gratification kinda thing I suppose. This isn't to say that I don't have a ton stuff to yak endlessly about, its just a matter of dragging myself over here to talk about it.

The job is going well. I'm learning to be better at serving our veterans everyday and I actually enjoy what I do, I still belong in a classroom though and so I will be heading back to classes next month to keep plugging away at that certification and M.Ed in Secondary Education.

I start volunteer work soon, the plan is to do veteran services outreach so that I can really begin to be a force in politico-activism (if there is indeed such a thing).

DRAGON-CON is coming up in Atlanta next month and of course I bought my plane ticket over a month ago with points I earned throughout the year. Awesome. Who knew that managing your life rather than just pulling a day by day could be so fruitful. The Artist is doing well, he made some amazing progress in one of his young adult tales and honestly, from what I have read it is excellent. The artwork ain't too shabby either, but then I'm biased.

I am still sticking it to my fat cells and am like a gym junkie these days. Water aerobics twice a week break up the monotony of my regular daily workouts (I don't work out Friday nights--party night!).

My friends are wonderful as always and making dramatic changes in their lives for their betterment. I am well loved and I'm thankful to the point of mushy (but then, I've always been the sensitive type).

Positivity yields positivity, believe me. I was so negative a while ago and all it brought was sadness and misery. I had to make a conscious effort on the daily to just find a silver lining. I went nuts with pain for a long time but it got me nowhere. I had a retail management job that I didn't care for, even though to this day I LOVE retail as career. I was eating poorly. I wasn't working out and I was blaming myself for things that were the responsibility of others. I internalized the shortcomings of the people I had in my life at the time. I just felt trapped in my emotions all the time. Then I went into myself and really asked some difficult questions. I found that I constantly put others first (not in the way you think)--I worried about others finding me accessible and useful to them. I never thought about how I could be accessible and useful to me first.
Now, I look out for me. I make myself happy so that I can be a source of happiness for others. I let my friends know when they have hurt me and I apologize sincerely when I hurt them, because I care about them and I value them as a part of my life. I value ME so they value me.
I can't believe that something as simple as self acceptance can make one so abundantly happy but here I am.

Well I'm planning my 40th birthday trip to the Mediterranean with one of my best gal-pals (shout out to Adrian) for 2011 (when I actually turn 40).
This year for my 39th in December I plan to visit California (shout out to you Suzy-Que) and of course in January, I have my annual trip to Arizona for the trek to the Grand Canyon with one of my favorite couples and two of my favorite individuals The Guthries.

Love and Light and good Karma to all.



perrye said...

Excellent reflection points -thank you!

I have to wait til December?!?!?! I guess that gives me time to plan to do it up in style. I really need a job!

T. S. Snowden said...

Sorry Lady, but I have never been to San Fran so woo hoo! I'll email you!